after all these... only now do i realise clubbing is still more important than me afterall. despite me saying no... you still went. so much of you saying all those things when we were on the verge of breaking up. you'll go home early everyday... you'll not club anymore... you do whatever i want you to do... bullshit. it's nowhere near. yes i wanted you to be happy... i don't want to control you... but all these is... too much. this week Monday to Wednesday you stayed out till 1+am... Thursday 3+am... last night you didn't even go home... and now.........................

it feels like you ask me if you can go for the sake of asking... you were already preparing... dressing up... regardless of what my answer is. you feel that you can just get your way through by hitting on my soft spots. you think that at the end of the day you'll be able to pacify me easily. you think that............ sigh whatever... you think...............

i give up already... gave up... do whatever you want...

yah... you are trying... trying........ stupid of me to take that....

to think i really thought that when i say no you'll respect my decision and not go clubbing... to think i believe in you that you'll really choose me over clubbing... to think that i thought you did learn from previous experience on who or what is more important to you... to think............ to think............

i'm so disappointed.............................. totally...........